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How are you all? It's been a little while since I last posted. Do you forgive me??
Well, since we last spoke I have had the first session of the laser acupuncture. Unfortunately, it can take 3/4 times of doing it before you truly know whether it is going to work for me. Which, at £100 a time - quite frankly sucks!! But hey, at this stage I will try and pay just about anything!
Never heard of laser acupuncture? Me neither until I was told to give it a try! You don't feel a thing at all. It was on a low dose the first time for about 30minutes. This treatment is fairly new in the UK and was first done in Canada. It's hard to explain what it looked like so I've found some pictures to show you as best I can because... well I just didn't think to take pictures there at the time HAHA It was at 8:15 in the morning and I DO NOT do mornings well. Not a morning person to say the least.
It's kind of like a belt pack buckle or something. I don't quite know where I was going with that appalling description but you know. All of us (my parents were with me) had to wear special protective googles which were super sexy to protect our eyes. The laser isn't harmful on the cells or body for the most part but they can be for your eyes. The idea of the laser is that they help the cells grow and repair. It initially helps reduce pain and in the long run if you keep having the treatment it can potentially help repair nerves/muscles. As per normal though, Gastroparesis is well.... let's just say difficult so we have no idea whether it will help at all or do nothing like everything else has so far. The Specialist doing it did say that it could make you worse for a day or two after or give relief or do nothing. He was hopeful for any difference be it good or bad because it would show it was having some impact. Sometimes things get worse before they get better and in this instance it could be the same kind of idea. Nothing really happened the day I had it to be honest aside from getting the hiccups a LOT. Literally about 12 times in that one day. The day after, I still had the hiccups more frequently than I normally would but not as much as the day before. Yesterday (I had the laser acupuncture on Thursday) I had a really rough day with pain. I don't know if this is all just coincidence or related especially as he said if it got worse it would be the same day or maybe the one after. Who knows. Apparently no-one when it comes to this stupid, horrible, painful, frustrating, life changing, scary condition. And that's just getting started. I'm so fed up right now of the pain and what my life has come to because of it. Things that I loved doing, I just don't have the energy to do and therefore don't even want to do them anymore. Been quite emotional lately about everything if I'm honest. If this doesn't work.... I just, I don't know ...
I have another appointment to have another session of it done again on Thursday 31st October, so I guess we shall see if that shows any signs of helping or not. The specialist really didn't say whether he though it'd help or not. He didn't want to promise or say anything and then it not happen because he just doesn't know. Due to the fact it is a condition where such little is known about it, we have no freaking idea whether it'll help. Even just a little bit where the edge is taken off would be a huge thing right now. Just something.... anything!! It is only a few days away now from being 1 year since I got the pacemaker and to be quite honest, I don't really feel any better since having it pain wise especially. Nausea wise, it's okay-ish now that it's back on the higher setting alongside with my mediation. If I skip an anti-sickness tablet... BOY DO I KNOW ABOUT IT!!
BLAHHHHHHHHHHHH - that is how I feel right now. Everything just seems like such an effort to do because I have no energy. Work takes all the energy I do have leaving me none to have a life. Even making youtube videos now.... Sitting down talking to a camera and then editing it on my laptop doesn't sound like hard work or energetic, but apparently it is. Lying in bed just watching something is much easier. I've just gotten through an entire season of a programme called "Twisted" in about 2 or 3 days I think it was. On the plus, I really really like the show - so I'm kind of glad I came across that one and decided to give it a watch HAHA. If you have any good shows, please be sure to let me know HAHA!!
Well, that's all for now.
Question for the post - What are you dressing up as for Halloween this year? (For those of you who are dressing up of course)
Speak to you all soon
Stay Strong
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